My Family

Just a little peek into my life and my family. I have a blended family and it has not always been an easy task - blending. I have four children - 3 daughters and a son. Nine years ago I met a wonderful man, Scott, that I fell in love with and that to my surprise loved me too and all my kids. He has one son. We married almost 5 years ago and began the crazy task of blending our two lives - not an easy task especially with teenagers. At the time I had 3 teenager girls and a preteen boy. His son was 11. Scott has two brothers (no sisters) and only a son (even his first marriage there were two stepsons), so his world became quite interesting with teenage girls!! He still doesn't understand the unexplained shrieks and giggles, but he's adapting. The kids are older now, but we still have 3 teenagers in the house. lol. Its never quiet and there's never a dull moment and someone always needs gas money, but I love my life. As the clock ticks and they get older and slowly begin leaving my safe nest, I find myself panicking. I just want to grab them and say "stop growing up". So any of you that have small toddlers that seem like endless bundles of energy, please remember to try to enjoy every moment whether good or bad. It is true that "this too shall pass" but some of it I wish wouldn't. Just love them and make sure they know it.

Its been a stressful one

It is 1:37 in the a.m. and here I am unable to sleep. The restless legs woke me up even tho I took my meds. I contribute it to the stressful day yesterday. With 5 children there is always something and sometimes more than just a something. It started out with trying to get my youngest daughter registered for college and all the financial aid hoopla you have to go through. After about 4 hours it all worked out. She is so happy to be starting school. She also is wanting to get a new car - this one financed by her. But I will probably have to co-sign which I have no problem doing, but my husband does have a problem with it. So that has caused some friction. I may not have mentioned that 4 of the children are mine from previous marriage and 1 child is a stepson. That whole family blending experience is a whole other blog. Child #1 is almost 25 and living in Mississippi and trying to go to school too. She's calling me for money for school.

And with all this going on, my 76 yr old mom broke her toe the other day. She is stubborn and not a very compliant patient. She insists she still can do it all and won't ask for help. So we just have to show up without asking her and start doing for her. Another blog another day - she is my inspiration.

And through all that I am called a million times a day at work and it often difficult to get into a major "discussion" about all these things. So I guess all that has contributed to my inability to sleep and the onset of a bad attack of restless leg. I even went to bed early so I could get some much needed extra rest, HAHA!

As frustrating as it can be at times, I love my life. Tomorrow (rather today) is a new day and it will all be fine in the end.

Good Morning

Its my favorite time of the day... early morning. With a house full of teenagers often with friends/boyfriends hanging around, this is my only quiet time. I love my family and the neverending bustle of everyone, but I do need my time. Although I sometimes dread the 5 a.m. alarm, after my shower and a cup of coffee I'm good to go. The funny thing is, when my husband gets up around 7 and I'm all chatty Cathy with him, I couldn't understand why he just wasn't in the mood to talk to me. One day it hit me... I had already been up for 2 hours and he was feeling like I did when I first get out of bed. So now sometimes I still talk to him a little too much, but I don't expect alot in return until about 9. lol. Unfortunately that hour in the morning goes by much too fast..... so here I am now waking the boys for school and off to get myself ready for work. There's always tomorrow.

4:00 a.m.

Its 4 am and I'm wide awake thanks to the restless leg. Luckily I don't have to work tomorrow although I had plans to scrapbook all day. I guess I can nap if I need to. Life is hectic these days. Getting ready to have 4 in college - 3 daughters and 1 hubby. Was hoping to have one graduated by May but doesn't look like that's gonna happen - scheduling conflict. My baby girl is starting college too. She's excited. Its bittersweet for me - having all the kids growing up. Two more in high school (one is a stepson) and my Collin be graduating this year. 15 years ago when they were all so little, this day seemed so far off. Some days I longed for this day but now I hate it. I guess I'm having letting go issues. Well, maybe I can get a few minutes of shut-eye before getting the boys up for school